 | i've never been the one to share because i listen | Jan 18, 2008 |
Hello there little critter! What you see now on your screen is my multiply page, if you have decided to settle here for a while then maybe you are my stalker?! If you're not my stalker then evaporate!! Nah just kidding! lol I don't have much to share but some updates of what's happening with my life and all.
 | Retreat | Mar 17, '11 7:06 AM
for everyone |
Love doesn't break easily I supposed, even if it has been forgotten by the mind-- a heart can tell more, it feels more, and it's more real than what the mind tells; because it knows more than a mind does. Sometimes a moment can be life altering, it can change everything a man thought gone forever. Surely, as the perfect Time goes along with the moment, it can speak without a word in a voice that has never been heard in forever.
Something beyond the past can be uncovered by merely feeling pure simple joy in the heart in a right and perfect moment-- unaware. It can leave you half dead, then you'll lose your mind in the process, and you will notice that you're in the shadow of the past with the man you used to be long time ago. It's hard to avoid what the heart tells you, the heart tells nothing but the truth and no lies, only dire doubts; but what should be done, what should be felt, and whatnot must come and face it with strength and faith that everything will give you a magical feeling that everything will be alright.
Neither you or the the past deserves the blame, everything falls at the living moment, and that would be the time to compromise with your thoughts and memories. Feeling the moment is the best offer to set peace with your heart and undying lust for self renew, reflection, and redemption. I, on other hand is under the shadow of the past. I've had it with the time of yore but I failed myself not to feel anything when that moment came, that one particular moment threw memoirs of my moments that have been buried six feet under long ago and forever. That moment made me realize that I was waiting and still hoping for a second sweet joy with the same person at that very moment.
I wasn't aware what will it bring to me at that time. All I know is that I was happy at that moment, even if I had surpassed the feelings that I felt long time ago, it has still made me want to jump in the bandwagon and fill the emptiness in me. It almost conquered me and it is no surprise.
It surprisingly caught me off guard, and now I am longing for the past, I am chasing the wind, I am holding to a string, even if I should no longer expecting anything, no less no more.
This is real, this is nothing but the truth. I missed you, but still the lesson matters, I care for myself. You're dangerous and I don't want to get lost in space again. And leaving this great lesson that I've learned by the process of accepting reality for the world is suicidal, it's more than a pathetic tragedy. It can eat me whole and forget the person that I am after that great tragedy. My heart's desire regained its passion, but I don't want to hold Grudge again for the second time around.
I am foolish, I got blinded by that moment. My heart speaks for the truth, and even there are tears from my eyes; I know I can get over it again. There is a probable reason why, and even I cry tonight-- letting it all out once more can make me realize that I am better, I am greater and much stronger than before. I have little pieces of my own, small fragments of false hopes; but it will not get the better off me.
I can find a way that is right and I will make it okay. I don't want to live half alive, I want myself to be whole and perfectly fit for the eyes inside my soul. I am stronger and far away in your arms, and there's nothing can change that even for the world. I'm one of those people you see every now and then, with a common thought and personality. I am nothing but a man of dreams and reality. I know nothing about you, but I know myself fully well. I have thoughts that struggle, a heart that goes fragile when weak, and a soul that gets off track. I am delusional and it keeps me sane in my own private world. I laugh when I'm funny, I go crazy when I'm in turmoil. I get displaced when I'm lost. I am a common man, nothing special. I am in love with every role I play day in day out. So in love that I can do it over again. I see nothing but the mystery of life. I feel nothing but the spirit of wonders. I talk only to people who know how to mingle, and people who know how to create a good mood. Things happen naturally and Behavior tags most of the time. Worries don't come by itself, it goes with Reason. A blue sky for a blue soul, it's not unusual. It's a true crime for taking life seriously and avoiding the greatness of contentment. Life is conundrum itself. Every cliche, every magic, and every song you sing--- it takes a lot of understanding and affection. Life is a deal, it's risk that we should never take for granted. We shouldn't talk about the hard place, we should share it so people can feel our sincerity. We should not go back to who we were light years away, because it can leave us half dead inside our heads. We eat, digest and the rest is history. The moment it's done, it's done. There's no turning back. There's nothing we can do when it's over, but reflection can cure our insecurities. We can fall in line to the sun and give the way to the darkness of the night. We can hope even if it goes around the world. There's always another day, and we all can be okay. It's matter of time-- so hold on. And this is like the second time I blog here on Multiply without importing from my Blogspot page, and para maiba naman taglish ako ngayon kasi nakaka buryo din naman yung lagi akong nagsusulat sa wikang banyaga.  It caught my attention na mas marami na talagang gumagamit ng Facebook these days, kakainis nga eh. From Friendster to Multiply then to Facebook and Tweeter. Well I don't have a Tweeter account but I have 2 accounts on Facebook. But I deactivated it, ibabalik ko din naman yun sa tamang oras. Nabo-bore na kasi ako sa Facebook eh, parang nawala na yung magical connection ko with Facebook one day so I decided to deactivate it. Honestly, namiss ko din tong Multiply in fairness! Yun nga lang, when I got back here I find this Cyber Space empty-- sobrang bihira na mag online yung mga kaibigan ko eh, and most of them probably ignore this site na for good and it's soooooo sad. Damn.  Nagre-review ako kanina, pero ngayon nagba-blog ako habang nagkakape. Gusto ko sanang magyosi kaso tinatamad akong umalis sa kama ko at kumuha ng yosi sa drawer ko, that's too much effort! I find this day boring, really! The truth is, tamad lang talaga kasi ako lumabas ng bahay. I prefer to stay here in my blue room than to go outside. I go out naman once in a while when I have the mood of going out. Namimiss ko ba ang Facebook? Yeah...but not much. Probably I'm curious of what's happening there. So totoo talaga ang quote na You have to love something first before you hate it... Nakakaantok na tong panahon na 'to, cloudy and cold.. BED WEATHER! Am I burning too much topic now? Yes I know right?! I just enjoy talking lang talaga siguro, most especially when I bore myself like this... Sala-salabat ang sinasabi ko (tama ba?)... walang direction and it's red and bold. Nonsense ba?
 | Help me!!!
I need a natural high! I miss my Friends, my best friend, alcohol, college buddies, Ikai, Ate Babes, barkada in 3 pearl.
I want a new cellphone (Xperia X10), I'm excited about the graduation, I miss summer, beach, side trips, road trips..
| Mar 5, '11 8:12 AM
for everyone |
It has been so long since I actually blog here on Multiply. I usually import blogs from my Blogspot. But since I'm in the mood to talk and share things about me tonight. Here it goes. No, I'm not getting married, that post is a hoax. I did it because I know no one will see it since my friends are using Facebook more. I deactivated my 2 Facebook accounts! I did it because I find Facebook boring and it's eating my time (I hope I don't regret this) . I got addicted to it, I know it's my fault so I'm rubbing it on myself on purpose. My best friend has told me to delete all of my Social Network accounts excluding my Friendster account, and he's too late because I cancelled my account last night. I was supposed to do that even before but I forgot how to cancel my account. Ha-ha! I'm a Facebook addict, really I am. And now I am trying to be away from it for months-- maybe five to six months just before my Veterinary Licensure Exam this August. I still Blog on Blogspot and will post blogs there until I'm dead. I'll keep posting pictures on Flickr too, and I can answer questions from my Formspring for my friends to keep in touch with me. Well I hope they'll find out that I'm not using Facebook now. I actually have plans on reactivating my Facebook account.. someday! Not now.
Looking At The Past I was browsing my old pictures here on Multiply and it made me smile. How time flies! I was juvenile and yucky back then! LOL I am less yucky today since I grew up! Man I missed Multiply! I wish people start to use this site again, I mean we used to have fun here before Facebook came! Curses!! 
Life is about creating yourself. It's what you do that defines you. Love affairs can fall over and over again, and in every cliche that you learn to love along the way makes it easy for us to breathe the air that is so rare, we fall in love with its wonder that's so full and pleasant for our heart, body, and soul to muse. Life doesn't define us, it is us that define the true meaning of life. Life is not about surviving, life is about understanding it. No one knows exactly how we feel, otherwise you need to hope that the metaphor that you want to apprehend would reach the desire your heart yearns for. We always have the chance to grow, to give time for ourselves to create a perfect moment to take in. A moment that will make our hearts do its best in time of distraction and confusion. Running away doesn't mean your weak nor make you defeated. Sometimes being away from the people you care can give you a space to make the most of what you think is absolute zero. Being away from the people you care can give you time to grow up, because it's your job to understand why things happen. Nothing is easy, everything happens for a reason and we shouldn't blame anyone for anything-- it will not change nothing. Life may keep you stumble in circles, but you always have a choice. There are lots of rhetorical questions wandering on your mind, and we all know that in every question we throw-- we always know the answer. I know some of you have seen pictures of my good old friend, Camille. And you're right. This blog is all about her, her signature pose together with the sun. I actually thought that we'll not go through with this because we had a hard time doing it because of minor disagreements and some silly stuffs. It took us like 15 minutes before getting the right shots! That first picture is my favorite of all! It gives me the billboard photo feeling ha-ha! It's like she's advertising clothes and stuffs! That's how I imagine that picture! I love this shot. Actually this is like the first time I go for colored pictures with her since we do black and white photos most of the time, in my room. So we had this taken in my house's backyard for a change and to get closer to the sun. Her new polished nails were real nice, together with her white top. Well actually she prepared all of her clothes and she also did her make up and hair.
I actually used HDR here. It gave me a nice result, I think. If you want to know what camera I use for all of my pictures-- it's my good old trusty camera phone. I don't have a good camera because it's too expensive. I'm pooooor! I wish my father would give me one as a gift after my graduation this April. Wishful thinking.   | Dolls | Jan 5, '11 1:05 AM
for everyone |
I've installed Adobe Photoshop CS5 for the second time, since my first installation failed, replacing my old version, the CS3. Everything is new and fun. And now, I am trying to manipulate pictures using High Dynamic Range. This can be done by having numbers of same pictures with different exposures and lighting. For this to be done, you must have a tripod or anything that can make your camera and subject still or motionless. With HDR, you can make pictures look real and magnificent. With HDR in CS5, you can have only one picture for it to turn your photo wonderfully.
Here are the steps. - Have one picture
- Adjust its Shadows/Highlights to 40-50. (Image>Adjustment>Shadows/Highlights)
- Have a second layer then Desaturate it (Ctrl + Shift + U). Then change the layer to Hardlight.
- Make another layer using the base picture and blur it using Gaussian Blur (40%). (Filter>Blur>Gaussian Blur) then change the layer to Softlight.
- Done. You can add colors if you want.
I used my old pictures for HDR manipulation. Here are the results.
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Here are some amazing pictures that I like! Thank You!
| Dolls | Dec 8, '10 12:15 AM
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